Food for Monday

Well i have the focus for this week to be good food, so today for breakfast i started out so good, ate one egg with some fruit and then packed bell peppers for snack and a salad with samon on it for lunch, well i ate that but on my way home around 3:40 i was starving and totally craving a hamburger, so i pulled into mcdonalds and ordered a number 1- yes a big mac and fries and a drink. yum i loved it and told myself well you treated yourself so now stop eating for the night, oh no jason wanted crown burger (and of course i did not tell him i had already eaten at mcdonalds) so we went there and i got onion rings, a jr crown burger and finished up the boys oreo shake. I know feel a little sick from all of the shit that i have eaten today. so FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS food should not be my comfort in times of stress, and why the hell do i sabotage myself.

Food for the Weekend

So on the weekends i have the hardest time eating good and staying with in my portions. We ate out a lot this weekend and I pigged out on bajio, pizza and chineas food. Opps!

Monday-June 30

ran with sister doing a 70min endurance run. it felt really slow, my sis is not up to my speed and i am starting to feel it. Only did 6mi I would have liked to at least put in 7-8 miles. o-well the best thing is that she motivates me to get up in the morning and get going and that is worth a lot.

June 28- run

Today was such a cool run i ran 6 miles in less then 1hr, keeping a 9min pace. I was able to enjoy the hot sun on my face and the dry air all around me. there was so much life out there today. the white butterflys and dragonflys were everywere and i even ran into a buck, he was a little shocked when i got so close, it is just amazing to watch them run/bound away it makes me wish that i could too bound like them, so graceful and effertless. todays run made me relize that i need to run in the hot weather more often, becuse in all of my races i am always running when it is hot an it seems to kill me.

June 27

Well so far i have not been able to get a workout in today and i seem to have the snack bug, so I will try to snack wise. I always do this when i am stressed. Jason jacked his knee up really bad and it has been a day of trying to work get him to the dr, mri's and wondering how he is going to get through the summer with crutches and a knee that dose not work. we will know more on monday, but then i go in for surgery on wednesday and who knows how long my recovery time will be. Still hoping to get a workout in today

Thur-June 26

Rode new bike on a very hilly course, for about an hour. Had fun, the climbs were very hard for me and i realize that i need to spend a lot more time on the bike if i am going to increase my speed. food wise i did not go out to eat i bought food at the grocery store. kashi freezer meals for lunch and dinner and fruits for snacks. I seem to stay on track better if i do this. the only treat was 2 chi teas to get me home needed the sugar and caffeine fix.

wed-june 25

i am so exited when i got on the scale last night i was at 114 and this is were i was before i went to my national meeting were i came back at a nice 121. it feels good to be back. i am really focused right now, but i am a little concerned about going to st. g were i seem to get off track when ever i go out of town. i have pre planned how i am going to eat and i know that i can stay focused. today i swam and ran due to time restraints this morning

Tue June 23

picked up my new bike today it is so cool, i plan on riding it this week while i am in st. g for work i hope to get in 50-100 miles. Today was a good day ran 5k with a lot of hills and then did weights (lots of upper body) ate okay, jane gave me a birthday cake and i had some of the frosting.

Ran today for 60min and then swam for 30min. Everything felt so good, working on staying hydrated through out the day. Will try to take in 12 8oz glasses of wather through out the day.

weekly workout diary

Monday- run with madi it, it was up hill and madi had a hard time, i think that i could have pushed harder, but kept it slower for her. then i did a 40min swim, it felt so good to be in the water outside, i have not swam in awhile and it was great to get it back.

Tuesday- oh slept in and dogged madi opps

Wed- Run and swim (short run on the treadmill and 40 min swim 500met warm up and then 50m sprints.

Thurs- Weights (ass is still sore)

Friday- Ran with sister, we did hill sprint work (wow that kicks my butt) 4-100m hill sprints (ate too much for that day, sweets, sweets sweets- justified this because it was my birthday then ate to much at dinner ruth chris)

Sat- 20mile bike ride to Farmers Market

Sun- 30min of sprint work (I feel like this week has pushed me to the next level and that speed is starting to come back)

I will still continue to work on speed this week, I am going to St. G so hope to get some good bike time in but then again i am on my period and have very little ump i hate this time of the month it takes the mojo out of me and makes me want to eat crap all week long. so that is the next focus eat good foods and eat enough so im not hungry for the junk.

Birthday-31

Well its a new year for me. It is time to set my goals for the year. bag the new year who wants to set new years resolutions in the middle of the depressing winter there is no way in hell that I would be able to keep my goals during that time of the year. I can barley get out of bed in january let alone try and make some life altering changes. so for many years I have set new goals on my birthday. well today is the day to look at what i want to do.
Job- need to stay the same to pay the bills, but I would like to work harder at it so that I am more satisfied, become more involved with in the community work that i can do such as the coalition board-
Workout- keep doing it, maintain a daily workout. sometime i get ahead of myself and set to high of a goal and then i get discouraged when i cant train 4 hours a day like an elite athlete that i sometimes what to be and then i just F*$% it all and so i am going to stay focus ted on just the workout at hand take one day at a time, but work out everyday-move my sorry little ass so that it not a huge ass
food- wow why is this one so hard and why can't i eat like a big girl instead of a little kid, oh maybe it is because i am in a house filled with little kids. so the goal is to try to eat like an adult. the 6 cookies that i ate last night (curse Brandy for making such good oatmeal cookies) was not eating like an adult. so try to enjoy the foods of life-just maybe stick with 1 cookie not half a dozen- why do I do that and i had been so good all week. Which i totally needed to coming back from my company meeting were all i did was eat and drink for a full week- wow so good for me, and believe me being in my 30's i felt the effects, and i will not do that again the set backs of gaining 5 pounds and the endurance losses sucks far more than the great food and drinks
Family- be present when present: this for me means not thinking about work or projects that need done when i am at home and with my family but to be truly engaged in them
Wife- 10 years latter what is there to do, we are in raising kid mode and this is such a hard time on our marriage i so want that first meeting spark back but i don't think that it is ever the same as the want the wishing the tinking about that person non stop so i think i will just keep things more interesting in other ways and make sure the sex life stays as healthy as it is. in my opinion if the sex is good at least we have that.
friend- okay so i think that i am one of the worst friends ever i never call my friends but i think about them all the time and would do anything for them. so my goal is to put my friends numbers in my cell phone and try to reach out to them more often.

Wow 31- i remember as a kid that 31 was soooooo old and here i am. I fell 31 and it's a weird age a time when you realize in life that you are just average, just like everyone else not that it is bad but my big mark on the world may not be felt by everyone and you know i am good with that and turning 31 has gotten me to that point.

Sunday-June 15

Well today was fathers day and I was not able to get a workout in, but thats okay. I will try to watch what I eat, so far things are not going so well, chips and candy have already been condumed by 10am they were left over from a party last night. I just need to remember one day at a time.

Sunday-